Friday, September 7, 2007

The Circle of Life.

Over the past couple of months, we've had good news and we've had bad news.

Two of my close friends have lost their fathers and a handful of friends are glowing as a new life is about to enter the world.

I am almost at a loss of words because the summer has been so bittersweet. It's Life. It's a circle and it sucks. (Not to sound like a total pessimist).

One of my best friends suddenly lost his father last week. I had hung out with his father less than a month ago and I promised him I would send him pictures from that night. And guess what - It was, and is, still on my to-do list. A task so simple can just get set aside because the towels need to be folded or it's a sunny day out. As I stood at his funeral and absorbed the emotions from all around me... I felt so bad over something so minute. "I never sent him pictures like I said I was going to." Maybe it was because there was never going to be a chance to show him the pictures or maybe I felt my friends pain of never being able to see his father ever again. No more baseball games, no more cigars, no more happy hours.

It all made me feel like shit. From now on 'Never make promises you have no control of keeping.' I told myself. But then this morning I found out that one of my dearest friends is pregnant. And there is it, LIFE. I promised myself to follow through, spoil him/her and all of my other friends children - make their life a good life that they are proud to have. Teach them to live to the fullest so when it's their time to pass... they have no regrets - no, 'I should of, would of, or could of'. I know my friends father didn't have any excuses. He had a happy marriage, a great family, a smile that lit up the room, and generosity that was contagious. He had a life he was proud of and you could tell and that makes me proud to have known him.

Stop thinking about all the stuff you want to do. Be a do-er. Life it too short to sit around and daydream and make promises and plans you'll never fulfill. Finish what you start. Be that overachiever you are secretly jealous of.

I'm starting, today.

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